“I was a sensitive child with a deep yearning for God, though I was always a little unsure of how God felt about me. In a religious climate that valued righteousness and exactness, I worried that I didn’t measure up. I busied myself with the work of becoming worthy of God’s favor, seeking always to do more and sin less.
“I had a
chance to hear Jerry Root, a theologian and C. S Lewis scholar. At one point he said, ‘I’m a Christian
because I know enough of my deficiencies to be devasted. I don’t think I could live life without forgiveness
and without the love of God.’
“I had
never before heard faith framed this way. I’d understood a life of faith to
mean working hard to overcome my deficiencies. Hearing a mature, thoughtful
Christian stand and acknowledge his deficiencies, name his devastation at them,
and declare his utter reliance on God’s forgiveness and love—on grace —struck
me to my core. I expected shame, but God
took it all and exchanged it for redemption and love.
So wrote
Katie Langston in Lutheran Forum in the Fall 2017 issue. I was struck: grateful to have known grace so many years,
and yet still I try to measure up. Yeah,
give it up. Quit. Enjoy the redemption and love in Christ: grace.